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A Reading on the Ego: Presence is the Death of Ego

 

A client came to me with questions surrounding “Death of the Ego”. For the most part, the query was open-ended. The client’s Masters, Teachers and Loved Ones were very enthusiastic and conversational about sharing this information on the Ego, providing their response in multiple voices (in various vibrations), resulting in hurried typing, numerous typos (which I have done my best to clean up), and practically no time for me to “think” or pose follow-up questions. Still, I think the response is clear. For me, the reading was eye-opening and instructive.

Towards the end, I did manage to slip in one question about Ascension into 5D Consciousness during a lull near the end of the reading. For those of you who’re curious, make sure you scroll down to read information as well. 

This time, the client was kind enough to allow me to copy-and-paste this information to this blog for others to benefit. The reading follows in bold text. 

Here’s wishing you all health, wellness, light and love.

Death of the Ego

You used the words “death of the ego” in your initial query to your reader and these words most aptly sum up the situation you are experiencing.

Here’s the thing with death. Ego is the entity who fears death. While the rest of the universe sees death as a period of rest or darkness or pause between breaths of life, the ego sees it as the final end of itself.

This is why you hold so much resistance.  

Humanity is actually extremely interesting because of the individual’s relationship with ego. It is also interesting to observe how quickly or easily a person can succumb to the base fight-or-flight responses that the ego provides during times of stress and survival. Animals have a relationship with their ego too. (Humans have not really accepted this knowledge, but it is Truth.) Animals have a relationship with their ego too. Their egos are their lifetime companion who assist them in times of danger, death, illness and even while hunting or searching for nourishment. (The ego plays a storytelling/strategic role here, which we will get to.) The difference is that the relationship does not fall out of balance. (Most of the time. There are cases when an animal will lose himself to these “instincts” and will demonstrate lack of balance due to a bacterial infection or other disturbance to the brain, for example.)

The relationship between the animal-Being and the its ego is relatively balanced. The Source-animal acknowledges that He inhabits a material body, and comes with ego. There is no “thought”, “analysis” or judgment. Just response. Let’s just say, they come as a package deal.

In humanity, the ego-person relationship is interesting to observe, because their relationship grows out of balance. There’s a Thinker and the Observer, observing the thought. There’s the Source-being and the thinking-Ego that generates thoughts, labels, judgments, categories and sometimes more labels (to ensure the survival of its Egoic “race”).  

We know, this can sound confusing. But Ego is very Darwinian: all about multiplication and proliferation to protect against the possibility of Ego-genocide. All about erasing anything that presents a possible threat to its (possession—another Ego fantasy) self (another possessive word that comes from egoic thinking).

This is where You (and we will capitalize the word You, so you know we are referring to the Source-You and not the you defined by the ego. (Ego typically calls himself Me when he’s referring to the label that he has put on You, reducing You to me.) [Editor’s note: The reading continues, so I don’t know how the paragraph ends.]

What you are experiencing now is that your ego has made you possessive of Me. You have an Ego who is battling for its dear life and identity on your behalf. Not aware that You were and are, regardless of its presence.

Remember those old movies where someone would get shot, and they would writhe and moan and deliver a 10-minute speech before dying? That’s Ego. DRAMA!

Truth is. Only when you think, can we say with absolute certainty that Ego is present. Source-You IS, regardless of thinking.

Letting go presents only a threat to ego, not You—but ego won’t let you believe that for a minute. Therefore bringing about your “feelings” (another Ego word; Ego uses that when it wants to trick You into believing that “thinking” had nothing to do with it) of resistance.

One clue to be aware that your Ego is doing all the thinking, and not You (You doesn’t think, rather … You simply IS—we know it’s awkward to express this to you with human and English grammatical structure) is this: When your language qualifies things with adjectives and descriptions that boil down to whether you/ego think something is good or bad.

  • “I’m not ready to die. Dying is bad, because I haven’t yet had my first kiss.”
  • “This or that food is not healthy. It will make me feel bad and look bad. It will kill me.”
  • “The teacher loves Bobby more than she loves me. She always gives him special treatment, and it hurts my feelings.”
  • “If I had only listened, I wouldn’t be in this situation.”

Ego thrives on the illusion of endurance, eternity.

Presence is the death of the ego.

Ego panics when it thinks it’s being released, because for ego, its momentary death is forever. Ego has to build itself up over and over again. Ego never gives up.

Source is. Ego is Not.

Ego thrives in the stories of if, could and should—which is why humanity is infinitely interesting and amusing and full of creative potential. (Because of the stories that they can weave.) Unfortunately for you, because you identify with the creations of your Ego, you move with the judgments that Ego carries with it: “All these years, you have worked to rid yourself of Me, but you can’t live without Me. You’ll never survive! Who’s going to save you, if it’s not Me?”

As you can see, Ego can be extremely dramatic, and is a very convincing actor, director and lighting technician in the “show” starring You.

Ego’s thinking is always Past-Future, Future-Past, never Present.

Truth is always present.

Truth is where You are.  

Truth comes without good or bad, it simply is: just like Source-You.

Truth is independent of false; whereas false is always dependent on Truth.

Perhaps now, you can understand what is happening with you? It is perfectly safe for you to let go of ego, for you will create him again and again and again. Ego lives and fears the life-death cycle.

You know the Truth: You are eternal, independent of ego. Ego lives and dies, dependent on You.

 

Where does the Source/Ego dynamic come into play as far as the 5D Ascension is concerned? Is ego coming with us into that reality?

In a word: No. Part of the Ascension process is shedding the baggage, dead weight, of Ego. In fact, thinking and Past-Future thought will not resonate with the vibrational frequency of 5D.

Might this be what you are asking us?

We think we might understand the root of your question now… What you are experiencing are the death throes of your ego. Does this mean that your ego will be gone for good? Well, that’s an egoic “judgment”.

“Now” is the only eternity.

In some ways, during the transition from 3D to 5D, the “Now” will produce sensations that are akin to experiencing a fever. Cold, hot; hot, cold. In the Now, but sort of “out there” not grounded. Source-You (and most of humanity) is going to the 5D reality and wants to walk through the door into wellness and freedom and universality, but ego is throwing a temper tantrum and trying to draw you back. Did we mention drama?

So, ultimately, once you’ve ascended into 5D, this bout of fever, drama, intensity, “feelings” will not even be a distant memory. Your ego is waiting for you on this side, and its “image” will be vaguely familiar, though not at all recognizable, and your feeling of connectedness will be complete—without any fear or thought of the possibility of loss. (More 3D words.)

We enjoy receiving your letters and we are so encouraged by your strength during this crazy journey! It’s a first for all of us!

 


Reconnecting and Re-aligning – More Productive than Being Busy!

I have been meaning to write in this blog for a long time, but as you know, time keeps ticking along, and we have a tendency to busy ourselves with doing. Or, more honestly stated, I tend to busy myself with tasks. Things I want to do, things I think I need to do, and then things I have to do before I get to doing the things I want to do. Then, you get sick, or you take on a new project that eats up all your time, and so on.

So, as I do on most days, I woke up early to get started with my day. Because I have a day off, I clicked off my alarm clock and remained in bed–with a resolve to feel good before “getting busy” with doing. I thought of things that put a smile on my face: puppies, a field of endless flowers, blue sky, the beach, you get the idea.

Why couldn’t I stay in a state of Feel-Good?

Giacometti in Lugano - photo by C.T. LunaAs it turned out, I realized I had a really hard time sustaining those thoughts! Some way, some how, the feel-good thought would slide downhill into a pit of writhing, wiggling, niggling thoughts that wanted to get started with ticking away at my to-do list. (“First I could go this, but then I should make sure to do that, and before I do that, I should really…”)

Yes, checking off items from my To-Do list makes me feel accomplished. It makes me feel good. So, the Universe (actually my own manifestative Source Energy) hears that — and says, “Okay, let’s send her some more stuff to do, so she can check it off and feel good!”. So what happens?

I get more stuff to do.

Two, three or even four more ideas append themselves to my To-Do list. It’s insane, I know!

My mind and body are out of whack, because really no human body can really keep up with the speed of thinking. And when my fast-thinking thoughts take control of the wheel, my body cries, “No Mas!”

Sure enough, I have been dealing with a pesky cough for about two weeks.

It’s time for Re-alignment.

I know this is true because I am generally a healthy person. Not to mention, this information was confirmed — almost too coincidentally, when I ended up fully engrossed in the chapter called, “Perspectives of Health, Weight, and Mind” of Jerry and Esther Hicks’ The Essential Law of Attraction Collection (always in my Kindle!) when I opened up to the page I left behind months ago. (Side note: Six or so months ago, I was completely bored by this section, when my health and wellness was in perfect alignment. In fact, it is why I put the reading down.)

How to re-align? How to reconnect? I thought you’d never ask.

Immersing yourself in river Töss - photo by C.T. Luna1) First, come up with your own plan. This is so important, because it is essentially how you crystallize your contract with You. This also means that if your plan was inspired by an outside source, a good friend, the Dalai Lama (or whatever!), that’s perfectly okay. The point here is that the plan is going to be implemented by you, so it needs to jive with the tools you have in your toolbox, or the ingredients you have in your kitchen.

In my case, my plan is two-fold. First, I will take time to Feel Good when I don’t cross things off my list, as well as when I do cross things off my list. And, at the end of the day, my plan is to declare how happy I am that those things weren’t crossed off my list, because it allows the Universe to take care of it for me! (This last point is a secret double-whammy, because one of my issues involves feeling like I need to do everything for myself. So, from now on, I can let go and have an open hand to receive!)

The other part of the plan is to take more time outs and enjoy them fully–without effort! In two words: Have Fun. This means, no clocks or cell phones. It means, being fully in-the-moment, whether it’s conversing with a friend (or my sweetheart), enjoying the wait for the bus (especially when it’s cold), reading a book or meditating. It’s about noticing a moment’s spontaneity and going with it!

2) Don’t worry about your plan, just immerse yourself in it. This is your plan, this is your contract with yourself, and it is a living, breathing document (just like your Akashic Records).

Did you forget to do something in your plan? Re-write the terms of engagement and implement! For example, say you planned to spend 1-minute every hour remembering the things that made you feel good. Then, you realize you made it all the way to lunch without implementing the plan. That’s okay! Just change it to be something you can do Now that you remember! (Change it to: “With every bite that I take out of this delicious sandwich, I’ll remember one thing that made me feel good today!” Voilà!)

3) Take at least five minutes out of your day to be silent with yourself. The word “meditate” and “meditation” can be loaded with effort, but that’s essentially what being silent with yourself is. You may find that your innermost self can freely communicate with you. Listen. And feel good. Because you’re re-aligning and re-connecting.


See how many moments of Free you can find

Hello Readers,

Continuing on this journey of reading my Akashic Records, I thought I might share with you an excerpt of one of my first readings. It seems that when I read, it is much like conducting an interview, where I’m actually interacting directly with “another” vibration. The vibration transmits messages to me mostly in words, but sometimes it’s through sensations and images, which I do my best to describe after the reading is complete. Parts in bold are “my own” voice and those in bold italics are my description of images I received.

As usual, your comments and thoughts are appreciated and welcome.

Wishing you light, joy and abundance,

Cynthia


I am trying to better understand how or whether I can go about living to my fullest potential in my current working situation.

We are pleased to have you reach out to us. And to make efforts at furthering our contact.

You wish to address the patterns of your life at the moment. We understand this. Your life right now is patterned with chaos. This is the way it is meant to be, dear Cynthia. You have wished for this — the full schedule, the numerous requests upon your time. And, yet, you are also finding that somehow, this no longer serves you. Correct?

Yes. Yes! What do I do about streamlining my life, so that I can serve others, find personal fulfilment, and still have time, and a breath of fresh air to enjoy the things I love? I feel frustrated with my work — my job — for taking precious time away from me every week, but I am grateful for the regular paycheque, so I don’t need to worry about how the rent will be paid, etc.

We know you worry. We know that worry is what also so effectively manifested these things for you. Remember when you lived in California, and you wished for more time, so you could find clients? You wished for clients who would desire what you offered? At the same time, you struggled with your contract with [Company X], because you felt they “demanded” so much time from you — when actually you know you demanded that time of yourself and gave it away.

Yes, I remember. I know… What do I do about this? How can I correct this pattern?

Don’t worry. You are being taking care of.

I feel funny asking this. What do I do to release the worry? 

Just let go.

[long pause]

We can see you are struggling with doubt about that one.

Yes. Finances surfaced for me when we started to work on my worries. That one has a strong gravitational pull. Can we explore a time when I had a particular issue with money that I have managed to create this gravitational pull for myself? Can we go there and cut those memories, or release those bonds, or whatever?

:-) [Author’s note: Sometimes, the answer actually includes the typing of a “colon” and an “end parentheses”.]

Young boy, aged 11. Playing football. War. [My impression is that I am in England, thought I can’t say for sure.]

It was the last thing on your mind at that time. Your parents were killed suddenly, that your life was transformed in an instant. In short order, you were sent on a train to a textile factory.

My job was to sweep the fluff and put them back in bins. Not a trace of fluff was to be wasted. Everything was to be put back in the bins, all the cotton could be woven into the fabric of war. I lived with a couple, who also worked at the cotton mill. I was lucky. I paid them rent and received a mattress in a small sleeping quarter, and food to eat. As long as I paid my rent, I had a place to stay. I missed my parents. I never grieved their passing. I had to find work quickly. My heart wept almost daily, especially those nights. Every night before falling asleep. The thing that I had taken for granted was now no longer there. My mother’s love. I could see now why my father was so stern. He was probably as tired as I was now after a day of collecting cotton. 

One day in the cotton mill, I lost my left hand. [It was bandaged and within a short period — I’m not sure how long, the vision glossed over that — I was back to work without a hand.] I tried to keep up with the other little ones who collected cotton, but I wasn’t as swift moving through the looms to get cotton fluff. The pain from my injury was also growing increasingly unbearable. [It may have been infected.] Paying my rent became harder and harder to do. I died before reaching the age of 14. 

Okay. So I see how I honoured and valued money in that life. It afforded me a place of my own. I also see that I forged an emotional connection with money and work. How do I release those bonds, those connections? Do those sentiments no longer serve me? 

We don’t know… Do they?

I feel like you’re trying to tell me I know the answer to my question. 

Yes. You already do.

How do I allow money to enter into my life freely? Without condition? How do I release my stronghold on the factory worker conundrum?

In this moment, do you now see that you are free?

See the moments when you are free and celebrate them. Right now, those days are Saturday and Sunday. Are you not free on Monday evening when you sing in the choir?

When you are free, and you find yourself in a  moment of freeness, be completely free for that entire moment. Do not think about that moment later, when you need to [do this or that] … or another moment in the future, when you might have to [do this or that]… [writer’s note: I am feeling my body sway back and forth, torn between the illusion of needing to be in two places at the same time.] Immerse yourself, bathe yourself fully in the free moments when you find them. Perhaps it is just a minute before the bus arrives. Perhaps it is in the ladies’ room as you powder your nose. Relish that minute for all its sixty-seconds’ worth. Do not even think of the 61st second before it appears.

See how many moments of Free you can find in the morning on your way to work.

Find your moments of Free during work. The one where you can step way — and do so completely. One minute here, another minute there.

Okay, I get it. 

You are working your job at [Company Z] because it serves you now. Once you have released your attachment to the job, there will be the space for that which you love. Just remember, it is already there.

You just aren’t celebrating those moments fully.