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Picking the short straw on your life’s calling

A few months ago, I received word in an Akashic reading conducted by FreerSpirit.com that one of my big responsibilities during this lifetime would be in the realm of fair and transparent wealth distribution. This information really resonated with me, while at the same time putting me in a real panic about what all that really meant.

In this 3D illusion-reality, I would not be the ideal candidate for working on this. My résumé is a patchwork of experience in languages and advocacy communications — not banking and finance.

Mind you, in the work I have done, I have been committed to issues and causes that would help lead people to an understanding of the inequities in our current socio-political systems. I would find and prime spokespeople for their on-air appearances and write speeches for fundraisers… those sorts of things. All the while, I would read the newspaper and keep track of what was happening on the internet. I enjoyed my politics and economics like the next guy, but I was (am) a regular Jill — just a spectator of the show that was being played out before me.

Lights, Camera, Zürich! photo by C.T. Luna

Finding myself in the financial center of things…

And then I found out that I was actually supposed to be a player in this show…

But, Banking? Really? Little ol’ me?

Yes, really. In an email conversation with Jen, she asked me casually how this information was settling into me (that this was what my higher self had chosen for me in this lifetime). That was about a month after her initial reading — and, to sum it up in a couple of words: it wasn’t.

Jen joked with a sympathetic tone that she understood that it must feel like pulling the “short straw” and thinking “oh, damn, why couldn’t I have picked clean air and water?” And the funny thing was, while I understood what she meant, I totally realized that I couldn’t have picked clean air and water — that fair and transparent wealth distribution is really the only team I’m supposed to be on. :-)

I had been googling the words “fair and transparent wealth distribution” in my browser’s search field since that first reading. And I was discovering all sorts of interesting things. Names of banks and so-called non-government organizations kept cropping up in the issue of the status quo. These were the very same international “non-government organisations” (NGOs) that my parents had been working for during all my childhood!

These NGOs were telling us that they are doing good things for the developing world — providing loans to nations, so they could build infrastructure for development and grow their economies.

Today, we know that these very NGOs play a larger role in manipulating the power structure of the world’s various economies and politics, so that the cabal can continue to retain their dynastic reign over humanity. (For example, they are the organizations that make side-deals with independent countries to adopt policies that permit other (developed) nations to set up military bases there.)

More importantly, for me, the flame of insight started to burn more brightly. I could finally see the “logic” in choosing my family that led a borderless existence, one that exposed me to (and appreciate) so many cultures and religions that it can be difficult for me to understand how people identify with the concept of “nationality” in the separatist sense.

Okay, so I still don’t know what my next steps are to “fulfilling my destiny” or at least “living up to my purpose” — but I do know that it is up to me to respond to this calling. And I also know that I called it. Knowing this helps. A lot.

So what do I do now?

I find myself asking that question all the time lately. I wish I had a ready answer — but I think not having a ready answer is sort of the point. I am supposed to be asking myself that question. Intuitively, I’m also sensing that when the question does arise, I’m actually “supposed” to BE — and not do.

In these pauses — these moments where I put “doing” on hold and allow myself to “be” — I have found clarity of intelligence, where there is complete understanding without doubt. Only in the peace that comes in this state can I come upon all the knowledge I need to do whatever it is I’m “supposed to be” doing. When I allow myself to find silence in the “I don’t know” I allow the “Do” to be as still as the “Be”.

Therein lies my understanding of what fair and transparent wealth distribution really means: We are wealth. We are the same — we are all priceless and valuable beyond our imaginations — we are all here to save the world and save ourselves, and we all here doing exactly what we chose to do. Yes, my résumé, as strange as it appears, is the straightest (most perfect) line between what my Higher Self set out to do and what my current-reality-self is doing. And I think the same can be said for just about anyone reading this.