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Picking the short straw on your life’s calling

A few months ago, I received word in an Akashic reading conducted by FreerSpirit.com that one of my big responsibilities during this lifetime would be in the realm of fair and transparent wealth distribution. This information really resonated with me, while at the same time putting me in a real panic about what all that really meant.

In this 3D illusion-reality, I would not be the ideal candidate for working on this. My résumé is a patchwork of experience in languages and advocacy communications — not banking and finance.

Mind you, in the work I have done, I have been committed to issues and causes that would help lead people to an understanding of the inequities in our current socio-political systems. I would find and prime spokespeople for their on-air appearances and write speeches for fundraisers… those sorts of things. All the while, I would read the newspaper and keep track of what was happening on the internet. I enjoyed my politics and economics like the next guy, but I was (am) a regular Jill — just a spectator of the show that was being played out before me.

Lights, Camera, Zürich! photo by C.T. Luna

Finding myself in the financial center of things…

And then I found out that I was actually supposed to be a player in this show…

But, Banking? Really? Little ol’ me?

Yes, really. In an email conversation with Jen, she asked me casually how this information was settling into me (that this was what my higher self had chosen for me in this lifetime). That was about a month after her initial reading — and, to sum it up in a couple of words: it wasn’t.

Jen joked with a sympathetic tone that she understood that it must feel like pulling the “short straw” and thinking “oh, damn, why couldn’t I have picked clean air and water?” And the funny thing was, while I understood what she meant, I totally realized that I couldn’t have picked clean air and water — that fair and transparent wealth distribution is really the only team I’m supposed to be on. :-)

I had been googling the words “fair and transparent wealth distribution” in my browser’s search field since that first reading. And I was discovering all sorts of interesting things. Names of banks and so-called non-government organizations kept cropping up in the issue of the status quo. These were the very same international “non-government organisations” (NGOs) that my parents had been working for during all my childhood!

These NGOs were telling us that they are doing good things for the developing world — providing loans to nations, so they could build infrastructure for development and grow their economies.

Today, we know that these very NGOs play a larger role in manipulating the power structure of the world’s various economies and politics, so that the cabal can continue to retain their dynastic reign over humanity. (For example, they are the organizations that make side-deals with independent countries to adopt policies that permit other (developed) nations to set up military bases there.)

More importantly, for me, the flame of insight started to burn more brightly. I could finally see the “logic” in choosing my family that led a borderless existence, one that exposed me to (and appreciate) so many cultures and religions that it can be difficult for me to understand how people identify with the concept of “nationality” in the separatist sense.

Okay, so I still don’t know what my next steps are to “fulfilling my destiny” or at least “living up to my purpose” — but I do know that it is up to me to respond to this calling. And I also know that I called it. Knowing this helps. A lot.

So what do I do now?

I find myself asking that question all the time lately. I wish I had a ready answer — but I think not having a ready answer is sort of the point. I am supposed to be asking myself that question. Intuitively, I’m also sensing that when the question does arise, I’m actually “supposed” to BE — and not do.

In these pauses — these moments where I put “doing” on hold and allow myself to “be” — I have found clarity of intelligence, where there is complete understanding without doubt. Only in the peace that comes in this state can I come upon all the knowledge I need to do whatever it is I’m “supposed to be” doing. When I allow myself to find silence in the “I don’t know” I allow the “Do” to be as still as the “Be”.

Therein lies my understanding of what fair and transparent wealth distribution really means: We are wealth. We are the same — we are all priceless and valuable beyond our imaginations — we are all here to save the world and save ourselves, and we all here doing exactly what we chose to do. Yes, my résumé, as strange as it appears, is the straightest (most perfect) line between what my Higher Self set out to do and what my current-reality-self is doing. And I think the same can be said for just about anyone reading this.

Let go of the feeling of efforting for value

Welcome Readers,

Akashic Reading is completely new to me. Over the past few weeks, I have visited my Akashic Records, and sometimes I think, “Hey, this could be helpful for somebody else who’s new to this process.” When I read, the vibrations from my guides come across as words–most of the time. Sometimes, they come as images or sensations, I try to jot down a descriptive word or two to capture an impression, which I rework later.

Thank you for visiting this blog; and feel free to comment! :-) 


P.S. Portions in bold are “my own” voice. Portions inserted in brackets [like this] are my own observations or commentary.


Forest: Model for Economic Sustainability, photo by Cyn



So, I don’t really have any questions for you. Nothing specific. Is there anything you wish to share with me? Can you help me to stumble on something that can serve me at this time?

Ah, you are a tricky one. [Laughter.] There is always something to share. Relax…

Okay. I am relaxed.

[I am receiving an image of a lush, green wooded area. As if in a movie, the focus begins with one tree, and pans across other trees and massive, old and substantial tree trunks. There is a sound of a babbling brook in the background… The thought enters that these images and sensations serve to aid me in relaxing more, deeper. I reach the understanding that the point of this is that relaxing deeper could “serve me at this time”.]

I don’t know if this is what I want to address…

Okay. What do you want to address? Do you have a question now?

I wish for assistance with my career path. I feel that my next move is spiritual, perhaps through the Akashic or similar, but I am not sure how to pursue this and make a living. In brass tacks, I’m talking money.

Ah. Okay. Now we’re talking.

Let’s examine this situation. You have been watching a few segments with Abraham and Esther. You understand what they are talking about. But now, you want to find out what you need to do, what you need to “effort”, to go forth with your career – with attracting an income for yourself.

Okay. What I think you’re saying is: Why am I coming to you to ask about what I need to do, or what I should do to attract the career or the lifestyle I wish for instead of simply preparing myself for the moment when the Universe presents it to me? If anything, I should be letting go…

You got it.

Dearest Cyn. You effort around this question of job and career. When really you wish to follow your calling. Even communicating with us now, is a form of efforting – particularly today, when you are not really allowing us to come through when you wish to receive a message.

Sorry. [I wasn’t really able to still my mind or get comfortable in my chair, the way I have during previous readings. I think what has also influenced this “efforting” feeling is opening the Records without a specific question. I have made a mental note not to do so for future readings.]

We do not scold you, dear Cynthia. We simply wish to show you the lack of clarity in this moment that is leading you away from the clear messages you have been taking in all weekend.

Okay. I am silencing myself now. I will remove my fingers from the keyboard.

…  [This seemed to help.]

What is it with me and my association between money and work/effort/job?

Dear Cynthia. Here you are.

Ever since you were a little girl, you recognized that your father worked hard, and often to ensure being able to provide for you. Remember what he used to say to you? “You mean, I am working so hard, to pay so much for your school?” He communicated a sense of efforting to you, which you associated with value or money. You needed to effort to learn, to earn your father’s worth.

This does not need to be so, in this ever-expanding universe that you are beginning to comprehend.

See the abundance in the leaves that build up in the trees every summer that are also used as ground cover and insulation in the winter. Do you not see this as abundance? It is part of the cycle. (It never runs out – like an economy that feeds itself sustainably.)

Cynthia. You can now let go of this feeling that you have [of efforting for value]. It no longer serves you.

Let us begin with little Cynthia who could get endless lollipops from the bank. The lollipops were free. :-)

[Visual element of grown-up Cynthia driving to the drive-thru banking window to collect lollipops for me and little Cynthia. We are happy and licking lollipops together.]

Good. You have released your resistance.

Do you feel the ease with which money is coming to you?

Trade in that scratch-off! It’s coming…. [Yesterday, I scratched off a lotto ticket, which I could redeem or trade in for another lotto ticket.]

Okay. Next…

That was easy.

What? You wanted it to be hard? We’ll work on other things in depth next week. *grin*

The next area is related to my job. I am torn between looking for other work and pursuing something more meaningful. My current job guarantees me a comfortable income and the unknown is… well, unknown…

We have already told you that the next job is around the corner. You need to let go [stop efforting] there with your current job and have fun. Right now, you are acknowledging the payment, but are you fully appreciating and celebrating? … … Well? …  Well?

You are looking for a prescription. Here’s one. When you get your next paycheck. Celebrate. Go out with your husband. Plan to go out, get dressed up and enjoy. See if you can find something that you two will really like. Plan a trip to somewhere. Do it today. You have been enjoying, but not relishing. It’s time to start doing that too. Be the creative [person] you enjoy being.

Should I take a class?

There you go with efforting again.  :-)

For the time being, you don’t have to. We think you should go forward with what you have. Most of all, enjoy the journey and the experience. We want for you to do this for at least one week.

I am getting a sensation that I should do this for the month of April too?

Yes. April’s a good month to do this. Do it for the month of April. :-)

Thank you.