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A Reading on the Ego: Presence is the Death of Ego

 

A client came to me with questions surrounding “Death of the Ego”. For the most part, the query was open-ended. The client’s Masters, Teachers and Loved Ones were very enthusiastic and conversational about sharing this information on the Ego, providing their response in multiple voices (in various vibrations), resulting in hurried typing, numerous typos (which I have done my best to clean up), and practically no time for me to “think” or pose follow-up questions. Still, I think the response is clear. For me, the reading was eye-opening and instructive.

Towards the end, I did manage to slip in one question about Ascension into 5D Consciousness during a lull near the end of the reading. For those of you who’re curious, make sure you scroll down to read information as well. 

This time, the client was kind enough to allow me to copy-and-paste this information to this blog for others to benefit. The reading follows in bold text. 

Here’s wishing you all health, wellness, light and love.

Death of the Ego

You used the words “death of the ego” in your initial query to your reader and these words most aptly sum up the situation you are experiencing.

Here’s the thing with death. Ego is the entity who fears death. While the rest of the universe sees death as a period of rest or darkness or pause between breaths of life, the ego sees it as the final end of itself.

This is why you hold so much resistance.  

Humanity is actually extremely interesting because of the individual’s relationship with ego. It is also interesting to observe how quickly or easily a person can succumb to the base fight-or-flight responses that the ego provides during times of stress and survival. Animals have a relationship with their ego too. (Humans have not really accepted this knowledge, but it is Truth.) Animals have a relationship with their ego too. Their egos are their lifetime companion who assist them in times of danger, death, illness and even while hunting or searching for nourishment. (The ego plays a storytelling/strategic role here, which we will get to.) The difference is that the relationship does not fall out of balance. (Most of the time. There are cases when an animal will lose himself to these “instincts” and will demonstrate lack of balance due to a bacterial infection or other disturbance to the brain, for example.)

The relationship between the animal-Being and the its ego is relatively balanced. The Source-animal acknowledges that He inhabits a material body, and comes with ego. There is no “thought”, “analysis” or judgment. Just response. Let’s just say, they come as a package deal.

In humanity, the ego-person relationship is interesting to observe, because their relationship grows out of balance. There’s a Thinker and the Observer, observing the thought. There’s the Source-being and the thinking-Ego that generates thoughts, labels, judgments, categories and sometimes more labels (to ensure the survival of its Egoic “race”).  

We know, this can sound confusing. But Ego is very Darwinian: all about multiplication and proliferation to protect against the possibility of Ego-genocide. All about erasing anything that presents a possible threat to its (possession—another Ego fantasy) self (another possessive word that comes from egoic thinking).

This is where You (and we will capitalize the word You, so you know we are referring to the Source-You and not the you defined by the ego. (Ego typically calls himself Me when he’s referring to the label that he has put on You, reducing You to me.) [Editor’s note: The reading continues, so I don’t know how the paragraph ends.]

What you are experiencing now is that your ego has made you possessive of Me. You have an Ego who is battling for its dear life and identity on your behalf. Not aware that You were and are, regardless of its presence.

Remember those old movies where someone would get shot, and they would writhe and moan and deliver a 10-minute speech before dying? That’s Ego. DRAMA!

Truth is. Only when you think, can we say with absolute certainty that Ego is present. Source-You IS, regardless of thinking.

Letting go presents only a threat to ego, not You—but ego won’t let you believe that for a minute. Therefore bringing about your “feelings” (another Ego word; Ego uses that when it wants to trick You into believing that “thinking” had nothing to do with it) of resistance.

One clue to be aware that your Ego is doing all the thinking, and not You (You doesn’t think, rather … You simply IS—we know it’s awkward to express this to you with human and English grammatical structure) is this: When your language qualifies things with adjectives and descriptions that boil down to whether you/ego think something is good or bad.

  • “I’m not ready to die. Dying is bad, because I haven’t yet had my first kiss.”
  • “This or that food is not healthy. It will make me feel bad and look bad. It will kill me.”
  • “The teacher loves Bobby more than she loves me. She always gives him special treatment, and it hurts my feelings.”
  • “If I had only listened, I wouldn’t be in this situation.”

Ego thrives on the illusion of endurance, eternity.

Presence is the death of the ego.

Ego panics when it thinks it’s being released, because for ego, its momentary death is forever. Ego has to build itself up over and over again. Ego never gives up.

Source is. Ego is Not.

Ego thrives in the stories of if, could and should—which is why humanity is infinitely interesting and amusing and full of creative potential. (Because of the stories that they can weave.) Unfortunately for you, because you identify with the creations of your Ego, you move with the judgments that Ego carries with it: “All these years, you have worked to rid yourself of Me, but you can’t live without Me. You’ll never survive! Who’s going to save you, if it’s not Me?”

As you can see, Ego can be extremely dramatic, and is a very convincing actor, director and lighting technician in the “show” starring You.

Ego’s thinking is always Past-Future, Future-Past, never Present.

Truth is always present.

Truth is where You are.  

Truth comes without good or bad, it simply is: just like Source-You.

Truth is independent of false; whereas false is always dependent on Truth.

Perhaps now, you can understand what is happening with you? It is perfectly safe for you to let go of ego, for you will create him again and again and again. Ego lives and fears the life-death cycle.

You know the Truth: You are eternal, independent of ego. Ego lives and dies, dependent on You.

 

Where does the Source/Ego dynamic come into play as far as the 5D Ascension is concerned? Is ego coming with us into that reality?

In a word: No. Part of the Ascension process is shedding the baggage, dead weight, of Ego. In fact, thinking and Past-Future thought will not resonate with the vibrational frequency of 5D.

Might this be what you are asking us?

We think we might understand the root of your question now… What you are experiencing are the death throes of your ego. Does this mean that your ego will be gone for good? Well, that’s an egoic “judgment”.

“Now” is the only eternity.

In some ways, during the transition from 3D to 5D, the “Now” will produce sensations that are akin to experiencing a fever. Cold, hot; hot, cold. In the Now, but sort of “out there” not grounded. Source-You (and most of humanity) is going to the 5D reality and wants to walk through the door into wellness and freedom and universality, but ego is throwing a temper tantrum and trying to draw you back. Did we mention drama?

So, ultimately, once you’ve ascended into 5D, this bout of fever, drama, intensity, “feelings” will not even be a distant memory. Your ego is waiting for you on this side, and its “image” will be vaguely familiar, though not at all recognizable, and your feeling of connectedness will be complete—without any fear or thought of the possibility of loss. (More 3D words.)

We enjoy receiving your letters and we are so encouraged by your strength during this crazy journey! It’s a first for all of us!

 


June 2015: Akashic Forecast, Quick tips as you gear up for the Ascension

Dear Readers,

I sat down to do this reading for a June forecast and the floodgates just swung open and loads of information came pouring through. Actually, it was way more than I could have expected, and I have excerpted here only the end part when we finally came to the June forecast. Don’t worry, I won’t hold back on the other gems that were shared. Basic take-away: the Ascension is on! We need to get our rears in gear! 

Your thoughts, comments and feedback are as always appreciated. Feel free to share this message in your social media and on your blogs (just provide the courtesy of pointing your readers back to yoga.livingincyn.com).

Much love and light,

Cynthia


 

We have been pointing you in the last couple months towards beauty. We wished for you to see beauty outside of you, and also to see how it resonated and grew inside of you. The exercises we gave you were small scale, so you could practice them while handling mundane activities: brushing your teeth, driving, even balancing your books and gardening.

Sunlight and clouds over the Arno, photo by C.T. Luna

“Play with cloud formations”

We hope you took care to tend to the garden in your heart, because this is where you will be cultivating everything you need to handle this Ascension.

Frankly, it’s happening now. If you have been experiencing discomforts – losing things and not being able to retrieve them – or having frustrating experiences that you can’t seem to transcend or “get over” – then we urge you to start focusing on the beauty (on the outside and inside) with fervor and passion. These are the things that will pad your way through the ride into 5D.

Let’s put it this way. We are challenging you to manifest in the Now. We are challenging you to engage with the Now with every passing now. We are challenging you to see things for what they are, observe them, and to change them while accepting them for what they are – a sense of perception that you are experiencing in your now.

Discomfort? It’s in your perception.

Let’s take a couple examples of your May, Cynthia.

A few times, on your train ride home, you would observe that the dark clouds were rolling in, and you would look out the window, observe the “reality” of the big heavy raindrops pounding away at the train window, and you would say to yourself, “I intend to get home dry today.”

You observed the “reality” of the rain without accepting it into your reality. You made it home dry every time. You didn’t have to open your umbrella once. One time you made it home realizing you didn’t even have your umbrella with you.

Same idea here. You are now in the reality of the Ascension. A reality in which you will be challenged to let go of the things you give value to – and accept that the world and others are not separate from you.

Mercury retrograde is a good example for handling this Ascension. It’s sort of a microcosmic version of the Ascension. When Mercury goes direct, you will see that it can be a smooth ride or a bumpy ride, depending on how much stock you place in the transportation or communications technologies you have at your fingertips.

Think of those friends of yours who say, “I can’t live without my smartphone” or “the internet is my life”. What a tough ride it’s going to be when the wi-fi goes on the fritz!

You will see that your internet is a helpful tool, but nothing compared to what you are truly capable of when you are riding the wave of your utmost (and ever-expanding) Light!

We really are looking forward to the moment when you do come back home and we can break bread without all this “work” that you are all so addicted to. J

Easy tip or trick for us in June?

Yes! Begin to play with your manifesting abilities. Every day, pick something that you can manifest – play with cloud formations, or images in your mind, or even a desired telephone conversation, or heck, manifest the perfect car for yourself! We want you to manifest something daily – not for us, but for you!

See you soon!