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A Reading on the Ego: Presence is the Death of Ego

 

A client came to me with questions surrounding “Death of the Ego”. For the most part, the query was open-ended. The client’s Masters, Teachers and Loved Ones were very enthusiastic and conversational about sharing this information on the Ego, providing their response in multiple voices (in various vibrations), resulting in hurried typing, numerous typos (which I have done my best to clean up), and practically no time for me to “think” or pose follow-up questions. Still, I think the response is clear. For me, the reading was eye-opening and instructive.

Towards the end, I did manage to slip in one question about Ascension into 5D Consciousness during a lull near the end of the reading. For those of you who’re curious, make sure you scroll down to read information as well. 

This time, the client was kind enough to allow me to copy-and-paste this information to this blog for others to benefit. The reading follows in bold text. 

Here’s wishing you all health, wellness, light and love.

Death of the Ego

You used the words “death of the ego” in your initial query to your reader and these words most aptly sum up the situation you are experiencing.

Here’s the thing with death. Ego is the entity who fears death. While the rest of the universe sees death as a period of rest or darkness or pause between breaths of life, the ego sees it as the final end of itself.

This is why you hold so much resistance.  

Humanity is actually extremely interesting because of the individual’s relationship with ego. It is also interesting to observe how quickly or easily a person can succumb to the base fight-or-flight responses that the ego provides during times of stress and survival. Animals have a relationship with their ego too. (Humans have not really accepted this knowledge, but it is Truth.) Animals have a relationship with their ego too. Their egos are their lifetime companion who assist them in times of danger, death, illness and even while hunting or searching for nourishment. (The ego plays a storytelling/strategic role here, which we will get to.) The difference is that the relationship does not fall out of balance. (Most of the time. There are cases when an animal will lose himself to these “instincts” and will demonstrate lack of balance due to a bacterial infection or other disturbance to the brain, for example.)

The relationship between the animal-Being and the its ego is relatively balanced. The Source-animal acknowledges that He inhabits a material body, and comes with ego. There is no “thought”, “analysis” or judgment. Just response. Let’s just say, they come as a package deal.

In humanity, the ego-person relationship is interesting to observe, because their relationship grows out of balance. There’s a Thinker and the Observer, observing the thought. There’s the Source-being and the thinking-Ego that generates thoughts, labels, judgments, categories and sometimes more labels (to ensure the survival of its Egoic “race”).  

We know, this can sound confusing. But Ego is very Darwinian: all about multiplication and proliferation to protect against the possibility of Ego-genocide. All about erasing anything that presents a possible threat to its (possession—another Ego fantasy) self (another possessive word that comes from egoic thinking).

This is where You (and we will capitalize the word You, so you know we are referring to the Source-You and not the you defined by the ego. (Ego typically calls himself Me when he’s referring to the label that he has put on You, reducing You to me.) [Editor’s note: The reading continues, so I don’t know how the paragraph ends.]

What you are experiencing now is that your ego has made you possessive of Me. You have an Ego who is battling for its dear life and identity on your behalf. Not aware that You were and are, regardless of its presence.

Remember those old movies where someone would get shot, and they would writhe and moan and deliver a 10-minute speech before dying? That’s Ego. DRAMA!

Truth is. Only when you think, can we say with absolute certainty that Ego is present. Source-You IS, regardless of thinking.

Letting go presents only a threat to ego, not You—but ego won’t let you believe that for a minute. Therefore bringing about your “feelings” (another Ego word; Ego uses that when it wants to trick You into believing that “thinking” had nothing to do with it) of resistance.

One clue to be aware that your Ego is doing all the thinking, and not You (You doesn’t think, rather … You simply IS—we know it’s awkward to express this to you with human and English grammatical structure) is this: When your language qualifies things with adjectives and descriptions that boil down to whether you/ego think something is good or bad.

  • “I’m not ready to die. Dying is bad, because I haven’t yet had my first kiss.”
  • “This or that food is not healthy. It will make me feel bad and look bad. It will kill me.”
  • “The teacher loves Bobby more than she loves me. She always gives him special treatment, and it hurts my feelings.”
  • “If I had only listened, I wouldn’t be in this situation.”

Ego thrives on the illusion of endurance, eternity.

Presence is the death of the ego.

Ego panics when it thinks it’s being released, because for ego, its momentary death is forever. Ego has to build itself up over and over again. Ego never gives up.

Source is. Ego is Not.

Ego thrives in the stories of if, could and should—which is why humanity is infinitely interesting and amusing and full of creative potential. (Because of the stories that they can weave.) Unfortunately for you, because you identify with the creations of your Ego, you move with the judgments that Ego carries with it: “All these years, you have worked to rid yourself of Me, but you can’t live without Me. You’ll never survive! Who’s going to save you, if it’s not Me?”

As you can see, Ego can be extremely dramatic, and is a very convincing actor, director and lighting technician in the “show” starring You.

Ego’s thinking is always Past-Future, Future-Past, never Present.

Truth is always present.

Truth is where You are.  

Truth comes without good or bad, it simply is: just like Source-You.

Truth is independent of false; whereas false is always dependent on Truth.

Perhaps now, you can understand what is happening with you? It is perfectly safe for you to let go of ego, for you will create him again and again and again. Ego lives and fears the life-death cycle.

You know the Truth: You are eternal, independent of ego. Ego lives and dies, dependent on You.

 

Where does the Source/Ego dynamic come into play as far as the 5D Ascension is concerned? Is ego coming with us into that reality?

In a word: No. Part of the Ascension process is shedding the baggage, dead weight, of Ego. In fact, thinking and Past-Future thought will not resonate with the vibrational frequency of 5D.

Might this be what you are asking us?

We think we might understand the root of your question now… What you are experiencing are the death throes of your ego. Does this mean that your ego will be gone for good? Well, that’s an egoic “judgment”.

“Now” is the only eternity.

In some ways, during the transition from 3D to 5D, the “Now” will produce sensations that are akin to experiencing a fever. Cold, hot; hot, cold. In the Now, but sort of “out there” not grounded. Source-You (and most of humanity) is going to the 5D reality and wants to walk through the door into wellness and freedom and universality, but ego is throwing a temper tantrum and trying to draw you back. Did we mention drama?

So, ultimately, once you’ve ascended into 5D, this bout of fever, drama, intensity, “feelings” will not even be a distant memory. Your ego is waiting for you on this side, and its “image” will be vaguely familiar, though not at all recognizable, and your feeling of connectedness will be complete—without any fear or thought of the possibility of loss. (More 3D words.)

We enjoy receiving your letters and we are so encouraged by your strength during this crazy journey! It’s a first for all of us!

 


The Conversation is the Record

Not too long ago, I heard that it isn’t really advised to consult one’s Akashic Records too frequently (more than once a week or perhaps more than a couple times a month). Intuitively, my response is that this is not true. Personally, I only find the time to consult my records somewhere along the lines of once a week or three times each month — and actually, I have been getting a vibrational response that could be likened to friendly impatience (“Finally! We thought you’d never come!”). What do you all think?

In this excerpt of a reading I’m sharing with you today, one part that stands out to me regards my question of wanting to distinguish “reading the Records” and “having a conversation” with my non-physical guide, Persephone. Now, upon looking the words over, I have the sense that the guides are telling me that the conversation in the moment is also the Record that has been “written” (is being written). That we are–so to speak–researching and writing simultaneously. This would fit with idea of the multi-layered time-dimension we live in, I think.

Here’s wishing you happy reading,

Cynthia


Ancient Columns, photo by Cynthia Luna

I wanted to know how I, or how can people create a smoother – more connected state with their guides, during waking hours – or hours in which they are not meditating.

This is a good question, Cynthia.

It is a little hard to say exactly, Cynthia, and the reason is not because we don’t wish to be in contact with you. On the contrary, we are actually tuned into your world, into your life just about all the time – well, some of us, anyway. The Masters are tuned into all consciousness at all times, and while they are specifically tuned into your world, they are also simultaneously tuned into collective consciousness at the same time. This is why when you are not in a meditative state, you can’t really sense them at all. But if you shift into a meditative state, you could if you wished, tap into their vibrations.

You hold an image of them sitting around the Akashic records in a meditation in a state of still and quiet bliss. That is one portion of their vibration – surrounding the guards of the records. But their main role is keeping an eye on you humans, working together on some of the snags you humans have so much attached yourselves to concerning religions, economy, society, etc. They are also a sort of energetic diplomacy force, massaging energies in this way and that. There is a lot of social unrest in your planet right now, and they work around and with that.

Okay.

Can we look at my question about maintaining a connection with you all even during a non-meditative state?

Why, yes, Cynthia.

Well, we wish to tell you that we are here just about all the time.

Who “we”?

We, whom you can call Persephone. I appear to you as one voice, as you might recall from an earlier reading, but I am actually a cacophony of voices. And, I like to assume a mermaid form, because you enjoy seeing me in this form. I can also appear more like a an angel in white toga, if that is your wish, but most of the time, my “feet” shape more comfortably into a fish tail or something that resembles that to you, anyway.

I am always here, is my answer to you. You have a tendency to keep yourself busy when you are not in a meditative state, so it’s tough to say when or how you can know I am there. There have been times, when I have nudged you on the right shoulder. Just to get your attention.

I think I have felt those moments.

Yes we know. We always like to connect with you. So we are pleased that you have found this means to connect with us.

So, am I reading my Akashic Records? Or am I just having a conversation with you.

Well, the word “read” is a toughy.

There are scrolls with information, but as you unroll them, they are loaded with hieroglyphics, which aren’t actually letters or characters, but rather “fingerprints of data” spread out onto the scroll. These are actually a lot like your diskettes. Depending on who is reading these, some diskettes present their information in a “video file” others as an audio file, which is how we usually get through to you, Cynthia. And sometimes, they are actually glyphs. Some of your human counterparts know how to read these. They also know how to read mandala wheels and some of the other languages scripted by other non-physical and physical beings.

The main answer to your question is that we are always here. Right now, as things are, Cynthia, you need to find silence in order to hear us. Actually, what you do here is remarkable and we are encouraged by your communication with us on this level so quickly. There are other ways, but those will come when they come.

Thanks. This is encouraging. Today, I seem to have a little doubt about this.

Even with doubt, it doesn’t deny us nor does it deny our conversation. One day, doubt will have no place in these conversations, in your consultations with your records.


How I discovered my Akashic records

Taking the path of the knight, photo by Cynthia Luna So it might be worth taking a minute to share with you when, where and how I found out about the Akashic Records.

The Tale of How I Discovered my Akashic Records

I was going through a little rough patch with my loved one. He and I were having a hard time communicating and we were quickly moving in opposite directions. Even when we tried we couldn’t seem to say what we meant or mean what we said.

I went online just looking for some distraction, and stumbled on freerspirit.com. She had a blog post up about debunking the myths on Twin Flames and Soul Mates. I really can’t say I understood it (and I’m not sure I understand it completely even now), but I can say that a peace washed over me, and this word, “Akashic” just started ringing in my ears. It seemed so familiar, even though I had no idea what it was. I then read her webpages “My Akashic Journey” and then “Your Akashic Journey” and decided to get a reading. (Go ahead and visit her blog to learn more. I found her story thrilling.)

I submitted my questions to her that night.

The following day, I received a response from “Jen” that she would be happy to conduct a reading, and would send it to me in “a couple of days”.

By Day Two, I had already googled the hell out of “Akashic Records” and had purchased the Linda Howe’s “Discover Your Soul’s Path through the Akashic Records” on Amazon.

Later that day, I heard from Jen that she was feeling unwell and had some internet issues. All to say, that it ultimately took a week until I received her reading.

Meanwhile, back at the ranch…

During that week, I pretty much tore through Linda Howe’s book and decided to do a reading on my own. (Yeah, I can be a bit impulsive.) This was right near the end of February 2015. You can read an excerpt of that reading here.

In near synchronicity, I finally received a reading from FreerSpirit, and even though her reading was different from mine (I posed different questions to my Records for the readings) they were still aligned with each other. I just intuitively knew that this was a path that I needed to begin taking.

 

My process: dialoguing with my imaginary friend

On the quest, photo by Cynthia LunaI’ll come out and say it straight: my experience with the Akashic Records is mostly emotional and intuitive. I just know them to be there and feel them to be true.

But maybe you want to know “how it goes down”. Well, I basically still my mind. I usually sit in a chair near a window where I can hear weather. (It helps me feel connected with the Earth, or grounded.) Then, I focus on my breathing and relax. When I feel quieted and good, I reach for Howe’s Pathway Prayer, which you can find here or in her books.

I rest my hands gently on my computer keyboard, which is already set up on a blank word document and when I start to feel a shift in my energy (that’s tough to explain — sometimes, it feels a little like your muscles relax even more) I’ll say hello. And that’s how I think I would start a dialogue with an “imaginary friend”.

Actually, I don’t talk out loud — I pretty much engage in the conversation in my head and type everything: what I say, and what my guide(s) say(s). These conversations feel like they are about 15 minutes long, but the past few times they have taken a little more than an hour. I like to give myself a two- or three-hour window, so I don’t feel rushed. After saying Howe’s Closing Prayer, which you can find here, I’ll sit quietly and wind down the buzz. I’ll get up out of my chair, walk to the kitchen and have a glass of water, stand near a window and look out at traffic or people walking. Just “return to earth”, nice and slow.

Not getting through? Here’s a little tip…

As you know, I have surfed around the internet and read a lot about this. In a lot of comments sections, I have seen people saying they have tried to access their own records and were met with silence. Nothing. My advice is: Just be completely, 100% okay with this — and don’t let the silence discourage you. Just relax, ride out the silence by focusing on your breathing and directing your thought on a body part that you would never ordinarily think about and see if you can raise your feel-good about it. When you’re done, just say the Closing Prayer and go on with your day.

My feeling is that everyone’s experience reading their records is subtly different. Some people will channel a voice with their vocal chords and others will tap into the voice in their heads. :-) I have read that some people see images, others started by “seeing” silent movies, which later came with full-on “visions” with dialogue, etc. In my case, it’s quite undramatic: it’s a voice in my head accompanied by a vibration/emotion that feels good, manly, powerful, childlike — whatever it is that I am supposed to be understanding. Sometimes, it feels like a group of energies are dialoguing with me, other times it’s a singular vibration.

I also have a hunch that sometimes you might be in such turmoil about the situation that led you to your Akashic Records that you either can’t state your question clearly (that happened to me not too long ago) or you just can’t “hear” the message over the din of your own distress.

Again, be 100% okay with this. (And also consider asking someone who conducts Akashic readings to look into your Akashic Records about this very issue. “Why is it that every time I sit down to read my Akashic Records, I get silence?”)

You also might find later in the day after your (attempted) reading, while you’re washing the dishes or deciding which apple to pick out in the produce section, that the very message you needed to hear will present itself to you clear as a bell.

My guess is not every reading goes down exactly the same way either.


Can any one of us help another with a weaker vibration?

Dear Readers,

In my first reading by Jen a little over a month ago, she informed me of two “Loved Ones” spirit guides, named Stuart and Jakob, who have been assigned to guide me since my move to Switzerland. Jen wrote, “They are familiar with the country and her people.” And she elaborated that I should call on them for assistance acclimating to the new experience.

So, I did.

As usual, my parts are in bold text.

Here’s wishing you light and joy,

Cynthia


Is there something I need to change about myself, as I consider taking my Akashic journey?

Cynthia. First of all, thank you for contacting us. Yes, there are those of us who have experienced lifetimes working alongside the conditions that govern the vibration of the society in which you now live. One thing that is worth telling you is that you do not struggle as much with the issues, conditions that hinder progress for Switzerland. Your sense of the conditions that define living, are not bounded by the same set of values that tend to bind people in this culture. It is one area where we think you perform your role in Switzerland exceedingly well, in pursuing your calling. You are comfortable to be you and you are blind to the conditions that make others feel rather restricted in their time and space reality in your dimension.

I can hear what you are saying. Is where I am working now, really the best place for me to continue to raise and spread my vibrational advantage?

Don’…

Let us begin again. Don’t think of it as an end station. It’s more like a dress rehearsal. You will not be at [that company] much longer. You will find employment quite soon. Something where you will be challenged to maintain a high vibrational energy and where you will be increasing or widening perspective.

I am thinking that being with my current employer has weakened my vibrational sticking power. Can any one of us help another with a weakened vibration?

Mosaic Mural in Epinal, France, photo by Cynthia LunaYes and no. Yes, in that you ensuring that your vibration is “up there” is really all you can do. It requires discipline and a desire. No, because that is really the calling of the individual. Some people note the positive vibration of another and “glom” on that. But you already know that…

Swiss people or the people categorized… characterized by that trait you recognize as Swiss, have learned to wall themselves off from vibrations in general. It was what your husband is sensing and for him there is a struggle for him to relate to others who “block themselves off”.

Yes, We are hearing you trying to point out a “lesson” for him here, but that is really not for you to concern yourself with. In actuality, his commitment is to healing. As for the lesson he is to derive from his experience and how/whether that gets in the way of his purpose is up to him to discern. Do you understand what we are trying to say?

Your lesson is to let go. Your husband knows you love him. Your husband knows you will protect him. And he knows you are his friend. Do you know those things? Do you love you? Do you know you are prepared to protect yourself? Do you know you are your friend? Focus on your vibration and remain true to that. If anything, your husband is getting you battle-ready. He is goading you to take the next step.

What is that [the next step]?

It is not quite time yet. But it is coming soon.

[I am sensing their presence fading away, as my questions for them seem to fade away as well. My typing s also a bit more chaotic and unsure.]


Getting to know you…

Hello Readers, 

This excerpt is from my very first Akashic Reading. I had the urge to ask for a more informal introduction from the guides providing the vibration. I do wish I had asked a bit more about these guides…

As usual, my voice is in bold text. Your comments are appreciated.

Best wishes,

Cynthia


"Ezekiel by Michelangelo, restored - large" by Michelangelo Buonarroti - http://www.zeno.org/Kunstwerke.images/I/77j309a.jpg. Licensed under Public Domain via Wikimedia Commons.Can I ask the name of the energy that is helping me with these questions?

We are a few of your Teachers. Your loved ones are here too, in silence.

What are your names?

David, Ezekiel and Oliver.

What about Stuart and Jakob? 

Now, they are here to help you with Switzerland-related concerns. But they are here, too.

What does that mean, Switzerland-related issues, exactly?

You have a history in Switzerland, too. An energetic one. But because your life has transpired mostly in the United States, a lot of what you know is vibrationally connected to the collective vibration of that land.

They [Stuart and Jakob] are your guides to help you tune into the [radio] station that serves you and your desires. They are there as you tap into your desires and manifest what you wish for. They are enablers–the music that comes through, as you rejigger your vibration to your station of preference.

So, are they responsible for my being so good at manifesting things [lately]? 

Yes, and no. Only you are responsible for manifesting things and your desires. In working with you, they have observed however that you , being new to this culture, come with a open vibration, or with a less-resistant vibration, because you have no conditioned resistance to what is possible or not in this new land. You are also aware that manifesting something as big, compression* and valuable as the refrigerator was easy, but for a Swiss who grew up in Switzerland, it would have been impossible.

Okay. I think I’m beginning to understand the roles of Stuart and Jakob a little bit better… I would like to be able to call on the right one of you when I have a question…

[Laughter – mirthful feelings] You can do that if you wish, but you don’t have to. Energetically, we respond to the question that tugs on your chords. [An image of a guitar appeared in my thinking.] Yes, just like a guitar. If your question vibrates to produce tones on a chord, the strings vibrate and generate a sound that is the answer — or the sound of the guitar.

*The writer is pretty sure the guides didn’t say “compression” here, but that’s what my fingers ended up typing up, and I can’t recall for the life of me what they could have said instead.

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