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Picking the short straw on your life’s calling

A few months ago, I received word in an Akashic reading conducted by FreerSpirit.com that one of my big responsibilities during this lifetime would be in the realm of fair and transparent wealth distribution. This information really resonated with me, while at the same time putting me in a real panic about what all that really meant.

In this 3D illusion-reality, I would not be the ideal candidate for working on this. My résumé is a patchwork of experience in languages and advocacy communications — not banking and finance.

Mind you, in the work I have done, I have been committed to issues and causes that would help lead people to an understanding of the inequities in our current socio-political systems. I would find and prime spokespeople for their on-air appearances and write speeches for fundraisers… those sorts of things. All the while, I would read the newspaper and keep track of what was happening on the internet. I enjoyed my politics and economics like the next guy, but I was (am) a regular Jill — just a spectator of the show that was being played out before me.

Lights, Camera, Zürich! photo by C.T. Luna

Finding myself in the financial center of things…

And then I found out that I was actually supposed to be a player in this show…

But, Banking? Really? Little ol’ me?

Yes, really. In an email conversation with Jen, she asked me casually how this information was settling into me (that this was what my higher self had chosen for me in this lifetime). That was about a month after her initial reading — and, to sum it up in a couple of words: it wasn’t.

Jen joked with a sympathetic tone that she understood that it must feel like pulling the “short straw” and thinking “oh, damn, why couldn’t I have picked clean air and water?” And the funny thing was, while I understood what she meant, I totally realized that I couldn’t have picked clean air and water — that fair and transparent wealth distribution is really the only team I’m supposed to be on. :-)

I had been googling the words “fair and transparent wealth distribution” in my browser’s search field since that first reading. And I was discovering all sorts of interesting things. Names of banks and so-called non-government organizations kept cropping up in the issue of the status quo. These were the very same international “non-government organisations” (NGOs) that my parents had been working for during all my childhood!

These NGOs were telling us that they are doing good things for the developing world — providing loans to nations, so they could build infrastructure for development and grow their economies.

Today, we know that these very NGOs play a larger role in manipulating the power structure of the world’s various economies and politics, so that the cabal can continue to retain their dynastic reign over humanity. (For example, they are the organizations that make side-deals with independent countries to adopt policies that permit other (developed) nations to set up military bases there.)

More importantly, for me, the flame of insight started to burn more brightly. I could finally see the “logic” in choosing my family that led a borderless existence, one that exposed me to (and appreciate) so many cultures and religions that it can be difficult for me to understand how people identify with the concept of “nationality” in the separatist sense.

Okay, so I still don’t know what my next steps are to “fulfilling my destiny” or at least “living up to my purpose” — but I do know that it is up to me to respond to this calling. And I also know that I called it. Knowing this helps. A lot.

So what do I do now?

I find myself asking that question all the time lately. I wish I had a ready answer — but I think not having a ready answer is sort of the point. I am supposed to be asking myself that question. Intuitively, I’m also sensing that when the question does arise, I’m actually “supposed” to BE — and not do.

In these pauses — these moments where I put “doing” on hold and allow myself to “be” — I have found clarity of intelligence, where there is complete understanding without doubt. Only in the peace that comes in this state can I come upon all the knowledge I need to do whatever it is I’m “supposed to be” doing. When I allow myself to find silence in the “I don’t know” I allow the “Do” to be as still as the “Be”.

Therein lies my understanding of what fair and transparent wealth distribution really means: We are wealth. We are the same — we are all priceless and valuable beyond our imaginations — we are all here to save the world and save ourselves, and we all here doing exactly what we chose to do. Yes, my résumé, as strange as it appears, is the straightest (most perfect) line between what my Higher Self set out to do and what my current-reality-self is doing. And I think the same can be said for just about anyone reading this.


All questions are important

Hello, dear Readers,

Today’s blog post is more of a “snack”. I thought I’d post a segment of a longer reading which handled something that is  tricky for me when reading my Akashic Records: knowing the question you wish to pose — or formulating your question. Maybe you have had this challenge too. Feel free to comment, if you have!

With love,

Cyn


The one question I have has to do with the process of formulating questions, actually. Why Do I have a hard time coming up with questions before visiting my Akashic Records?

Cynthia, your difficulty comes not in asking, or in formulating. Actually, you experience a sort of paralysis, due to the high volume of questions that can at any given point be asked. You’re sorting: “How do I sift the important questions from those that are less important?” And to that we say that no question is more or less important than any other. In fact, all questions are important, though sometimes, you may not see it that way.

Today, for instance, and last time I visited my records. I had a hard time coming up with questions. It seems restrictive to do so. I think, “Maybe there’s something you wish to communicate with me right away.”

:-) Cynthia. You wish for a TV segment, as it were, an episode, where [you sit back and] we inform you of the news. There are times when we do this. When we tell you something you urgently need to know or address. But there are other times, when we feel it is best for you to come to us with your wishes for the news you wish to hear.

 


See how many moments of Free you can find

Hello Readers,

Continuing on this journey of reading my Akashic Records, I thought I might share with you an excerpt of one of my first readings. It seems that when I read, it is much like conducting an interview, where I’m actually interacting directly with “another” vibration. The vibration transmits messages to me mostly in words, but sometimes it’s through sensations and images, which I do my best to describe after the reading is complete. Parts in bold are “my own” voice and those in bold italics are my description of images I received.

As usual, your comments and thoughts are appreciated and welcome.

Wishing you light, joy and abundance,

Cynthia


I am trying to better understand how or whether I can go about living to my fullest potential in my current working situation.

We are pleased to have you reach out to us. And to make efforts at furthering our contact.

You wish to address the patterns of your life at the moment. We understand this. Your life right now is patterned with chaos. This is the way it is meant to be, dear Cynthia. You have wished for this — the full schedule, the numerous requests upon your time. And, yet, you are also finding that somehow, this no longer serves you. Correct?

Yes. Yes! What do I do about streamlining my life, so that I can serve others, find personal fulfilment, and still have time, and a breath of fresh air to enjoy the things I love? I feel frustrated with my work — my job — for taking precious time away from me every week, but I am grateful for the regular paycheque, so I don’t need to worry about how the rent will be paid, etc.

We know you worry. We know that worry is what also so effectively manifested these things for you. Remember when you lived in California, and you wished for more time, so you could find clients? You wished for clients who would desire what you offered? At the same time, you struggled with your contract with [Company X], because you felt they “demanded” so much time from you — when actually you know you demanded that time of yourself and gave it away.

Yes, I remember. I know… What do I do about this? How can I correct this pattern?

Don’t worry. You are being taking care of.

I feel funny asking this. What do I do to release the worry? 

Just let go.

[long pause]

We can see you are struggling with doubt about that one.

Yes. Finances surfaced for me when we started to work on my worries. That one has a strong gravitational pull. Can we explore a time when I had a particular issue with money that I have managed to create this gravitational pull for myself? Can we go there and cut those memories, or release those bonds, or whatever?

:-) [Author’s note: Sometimes, the answer actually includes the typing of a “colon” and an “end parentheses”.]

Young boy, aged 11. Playing football. War. [My impression is that I am in England, thought I can’t say for sure.]

It was the last thing on your mind at that time. Your parents were killed suddenly, that your life was transformed in an instant. In short order, you were sent on a train to a textile factory.

My job was to sweep the fluff and put them back in bins. Not a trace of fluff was to be wasted. Everything was to be put back in the bins, all the cotton could be woven into the fabric of war. I lived with a couple, who also worked at the cotton mill. I was lucky. I paid them rent and received a mattress in a small sleeping quarter, and food to eat. As long as I paid my rent, I had a place to stay. I missed my parents. I never grieved their passing. I had to find work quickly. My heart wept almost daily, especially those nights. Every night before falling asleep. The thing that I had taken for granted was now no longer there. My mother’s love. I could see now why my father was so stern. He was probably as tired as I was now after a day of collecting cotton. 

One day in the cotton mill, I lost my left hand. [It was bandaged and within a short period — I’m not sure how long, the vision glossed over that — I was back to work without a hand.] I tried to keep up with the other little ones who collected cotton, but I wasn’t as swift moving through the looms to get cotton fluff. The pain from my injury was also growing increasingly unbearable. [It may have been infected.] Paying my rent became harder and harder to do. I died before reaching the age of 14. 

Okay. So I see how I honoured and valued money in that life. It afforded me a place of my own. I also see that I forged an emotional connection with money and work. How do I release those bonds, those connections? Do those sentiments no longer serve me? 

We don’t know… Do they?

I feel like you’re trying to tell me I know the answer to my question. 

Yes. You already do.

How do I allow money to enter into my life freely? Without condition? How do I release my stronghold on the factory worker conundrum?

In this moment, do you now see that you are free?

See the moments when you are free and celebrate them. Right now, those days are Saturday and Sunday. Are you not free on Monday evening when you sing in the choir?

When you are free, and you find yourself in a  moment of freeness, be completely free for that entire moment. Do not think about that moment later, when you need to [do this or that] … or another moment in the future, when you might have to [do this or that]… [writer’s note: I am feeling my body sway back and forth, torn between the illusion of needing to be in two places at the same time.] Immerse yourself, bathe yourself fully in the free moments when you find them. Perhaps it is just a minute before the bus arrives. Perhaps it is in the ladies’ room as you powder your nose. Relish that minute for all its sixty-seconds’ worth. Do not even think of the 61st second before it appears.

See how many moments of Free you can find in the morning on your way to work.

Find your moments of Free during work. The one where you can step way — and do so completely. One minute here, another minute there.

Okay, I get it. 

You are working your job at [Company Z] because it serves you now. Once you have released your attachment to the job, there will be the space for that which you love. Just remember, it is already there.

You just aren’t celebrating those moments fully.